The Doctor, Part 42

         “There ain’t no Jesus gonna come

           from the sky

           Now that I found out I can cry.”       

                    -“I Found Out” by John Lennon

The changes
are on,
I am a state of
devolve,

the bathroom,
a torture chamber,
Sean is
kneeling
at the pot,

I grab
the hair he still has
and smack him in the face,

where the fuck is the tough guy?!!,

I can’t feel it,
I spit twice,
I can’t feel it,

my voice is strained,
rough
when I yell
at myself,
it is a battle
to project,

the bathroom,
my pupa,
I cannot do
what I’m used to
and this
is only
round four,

I
struggle finding
my spark today,
I am
turning into
an
otherworldly
cancer
reptile:

my mouth is tight,
dry,
the lips are
numb from here,
the space
inside
smaller –

not like a place
you put food
anymore.

 

 

The entire The Doctor series can be found here.